dad shoot me with alot of questions today during dinner. and i was left there speechless. i didnt spoke a single word. i felt so useless. but in my heart, i was praying "God, tell me what to say i dont know how to answer all his questions."

the words that came out from his mouth was just tearing my heart apart. i was bleeding inside. i was crying loudly inside. i was afraid. i was all alone by myself. i felt useless. i dont know how to answer all his questions. i dont know how to make him understand. i really dont know.

at that point i really hope that my sis is just beside me. at least she will or rather she can answer all my dad's questions.

i dont feel like talking about it anymore. )):

i am hurt.
i really am.